I have been through
separation. I know how emotional it can be. I had to grapple with the reality
that my ex-husband had a new partner and she will now be part of Caden's life. But the difference between me
and how the Dragon have handled post-separation is my ability to rationalize
and empathize, two things she is incapable of doing. She
also harbors so much resentment and a toxic need for
control, clouding her ability to see things in any other way but hers.
After 8
months of Max and I dating, he asked if Caden and I would like to come with him
to watch Jessie`s gymnastics. I was pleased to be invited, and Caden was super
excited to go watch. However when Dragon got wind of me going she was not so
pleased. The minute she spotted me she gave Max a mouth full and stormed out of
the building. Immediately the text messages to me flooded in:
u just had to come didn’t u. Wanted jessie 2 see us
together...f** nerve
stop gettn in between our parentin...b the big one
and back off would ya
Let max and i work this out our way...shut ur mouth
skunk.
I can
understand that it is difficult to accept a new person into your child`s life.
But in no way is it acceptable to make such a scene in front of your daughter
and attempt to intimate the person with unwarranted text messages. But again,
here I am trying to understand one`s rationality when there is no rationality.
The rest of the day text messages came flooding in to Max:
I want peace...and don’t feel comfortable with the
ho around. Sorry she started it.
Started
what? Remind me again what it is I started? Because last I checked you have
been harassing me from day 9 of dating max? And last I checked I have not
responded once to your rage
Max
suggested that she needed to get used to it all eventually and her
response: i will NEVER get
used to it.
She has
stuck to those words for sure!
A few
weeks later I get another flood of text message from Dragon after she was all irate
with Max that he didn`t take Jessie to the emergency room when she carefully
instructed him to – for the cold she had. Apparently she thought I had
something to do with that decision. She went on a rant about how I needed to
mind my own business and butt out of the parenting of Jessie. She made it very
clear that day that she possessed Jessie and would do everything in
her power to seclude me: U can have Max, he is leftovers, but jessie
she is mine AND WILL NEVER BE URS GIRAFFE NECK
Once
again, your clever use of animal analogies is quite comical, from ho to skunk
to giraffe. What will be next?
All this
turmoil created by Dragon has made me really think about Caden and what it is I
want for him. I have been asked how I have been so accepting of my ex-husbands
new partner. What is important to me when it comes to my son Caden is
that he is happy. His Dad’s new partner is good to him and cares for him,
something my ex has promised to me. I am able to count my blessings and see
what matters. I have enough security in my parenting and faith in my love and
relationship with Caden that I do not fear her replacing me in any fashion. She
will only further enrich Caden’s already enriched life. For that, I am thankful
for.
It became
very clear to me early on that the Dragon looked at Jessie as
her possession that she had anxiety over sharing and that she would
do anything and everything to prevent me from having a relationship with
her. It was also evident that she was insecure about my involvement and
how Jessie may grow close to me.
Apparently
Carmen is unaware of the unconditional love children have for their parents.
She also fails to see how enriched Jessie is having me and Caden and now Blair
in her life.
Being off
on maternity leave for a year I have watched a few Dr. Phil and Intervention
episodes! Some of these people who struggle with drug and alcohol abuse have
come from families where the father has in essence replaced the child or
children with the new wife, leaving the children unloved and uncared for. Or,
there have been situations where the step Mother or step father has abused the
child or children – emotionally, physically and even sexually.
Jessie
has been truly blessed having met my family. They have accepted her and
welcomed her as their own, treated her with respect and love and dignity.
I and my family do everything we can to make her feel accepted and
supported. We do our best to shelter her from any adult issues namely those
that arise from the conflict her Mother creates. Never once have we spoken poorly
about her Mother. I know my place in parenting Jessie as I myself know what I
expect of my ex-husband’s new partner.
She is
truly a lucky little girl. I know because I know how blessed I feel my own
child is that my ex-husband met a woman that cares for Caden as I do Jessie.
That comforts me.
I will
never be able to convince Dragon that I am a decent person who truly cares and
loves Jessie and would never hurt her. I will never convince her that I have no
intent to replace her, as she is and always will be Jessie’s Mother and that I
can only help enrich Jessie’s life.
It is
Dragon that needs to see what is truly important here. She needs to count her
blessings. However I am not sure she is capable of such.
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